Day 7 | Week 1 Done!

Sooooo life has sucked a little – but I will be posting a 1 week update tomorrow!

Quick update; for the first time in I don’t even know how long – I have stuck to my workout routine for an entire WEEK!

But, once more I’ve put off writing (maybe that’ll be the new challenge for next week) and stayed up late to push out an update. So it’s off to bed for me, and I’ll be here tomorrow with a more in-depth update!

~xoxo, Katie~

Day 6 | Keep Going

You know how before I mentioned that the reason why I’ve failed in the past is partially due to taking a “rest day” and then proceeding to just stop working out completely? Yeah well, yesterday I didn’t workout. Being so overly tired from work, I woke up late, and then just had a rough day altogether. I was irritated that I was tired, and annoyed with myself for skipping a day.

But…today I made the change. I made a choice. Instead of being upset with myself and beating myself up, I did yesterday’s workout today. Luckily, Friday’s are to be “rest days” for stretching (which I intended on not actually resting but instead making more time for yoga). So I was able to treat yesterday as a rest day and today picked right back up where I left off.

Things are changing y’all. I hope you have a good weekend. Chat again tomorrow. You can expect a full week 1 update either tomorrow or Sunday!

~xoxo, Katie~

Day 2 | Food!

You know that time that you said you were going to eat healthier and cook more and not eat crap? And then you immediately start craving all of the horrible junky food?

Yeah. That was me today. Everything was fine until I got home from work. And what do I hear?

“Hey babe, do you want to get Chinese food for dinner?” *facepalm*

BUT. As I mentioned before, this journey is not only about building a healthier lifestyle, but doing so in a *healthy* manor. Meaning – in short – that junk food is ok. That everything in life is nothing more than a balancing act. From our work/life balance, our friends/family/significant other balance . . . and including exercise, food, and taking care of your body.

More importantly, the thing to take away from all of this today is that it is ok to slip up. It’s true that better choices should be made, but it’s more true that nothing will come from beating yourself up over mistakes or poor choices in your journey. What is important is to make sure that tomorrow you try again. Keep trying. Don’t give up.

~xoxo, Katie~

Let It Go

Here we go.

The dawn of a new age. The birthing of something beautiful.

They say that sometimes things fall apart so that better things can come together.

Here’s to hoping that they’re right. Whoever “they” are, anyways. Not that my life is in total shambles right now – though it’s definitely not what I would call ideal. I mean yeah, I’ve got a loving boyfriend, a roof over our (and our fur children’s) heads, a job with benefits, a working vehicle, food in the house…but sometimes anxiety and those little voices in your head whisper things that aren’t very kind.

Like how even though you’re making decent money, you’ve got a lot of loans to pay off – and it’s making it difficult to afford paying normal bills like rent, or even for food. Anxiety has a way of cranking all of your worries and fears and stressors up to 10…and then that’s when the spiral happens. When, in your head, everything falls apart.

Here’s something for everyone of my anxiety-dealing friends out there today –

letthatsh!tgo

Let. That. Shit. Go.

Get out of your head. Stay out of your head. I know you know what the beginning of that spiral feels like. It’s like when you were a kid, and you’d creep up to the edge of the big swirly slide on the playground – or when you’re on a rollercoaster and the machine ticks as it inches closer to the top before it sends you speeding down the track at several miles an hour.

That’s what it feels like. To experience the start of an anxiety or panic attack. You feel it happening. You know it’s going to happen. But sometimes…sometimes you’re strapped in too tight and there’s no emergency brake to let you get off. Sometimes you see it but you’re too far in you head to see it and grab for it.

I want to work towards finding that E-brake. And being able to reach and grab for it more consistently. Because we all know that yes, the feeling of anger and fear and rage right before an attack is real. And we know that we feel those things before an attack because we don’t want to be feeling those feelings – and so we get angry with ourselves for doing so. But. We also know that while it’s ok to accept that we feel a certain way, it’s important that we are able to yank on that E-brake HARD.

Here’s to letting the little shit go. The things that push your stress and anxiety up towards its limit. The things you panic about and worry over even though you already know that everything is going to be fine. (just because, what if it isn’t fine? your brain tells you…)

Here’s to accepting those triggers, and learning to cope with them in a healthy way.

Here’s to letting go.

xoxo, katie